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and the coupe i tint very light, so them hatin bitches can see me and you at every light... [November 18th, 2009 at 3:03am] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | wayne ] i cannot sleep... why? you may be asking... because im wayyyyy yyyyyyyyyyy too excited to sleep! got the besttttt newwwwssssss everrrrrrrrrr tonight! and that news would be... I GET TO GO HOME! yayyy rabbit told me tonight that i can come back to florida and go to the best cos school everrrr and live with him again! yayyyy im going to die of excitement! i cannot even wait to be home, goodbye michigan. goodbye cold. goodbye winter, im so glad i couldnt stick around to see you. leaving after thanksgiving. not sure exactly when. im sooooo fucking pumpedddd! sooo in your face to everyone who doubted it would happen, and lollllllllll AH HA HA all i have to do now is put in my 2 weeks at the ci return my shit to bayshire pack myself and jimmy up and begin the long drive! YESSSSSSS i am in loveeee with dustin winn forever and always be jealous bitches, he is once again MINE :] yayyyy ilml! just had to share the news out!

she dont wanna, she dont wanna let wayne go, she just wanna wanna follow the wayne-bow... [November 12th, 2009 at 5:17am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | wayneee ] Long time, no update... Been all outta wack lately. All my body wants me to do is sleep, feels like no matter how much I get I still need more. Guess I'm just worn out. School is going okay. Works going better than it was. Sick of a few of the people there and sick of people talking shit and telling lies. I love my job, don't get me wrong but its just pissing me off lately. Staying up all night tonight to make sure I get myself to school. Did the same thing last thursday too. I don't know what my problem is. No work tomorrow. Dying allyson's hair. Bethann wants me to go to a party but idk yet. I kinda like staying home and hanging out with my babe. Everyone thinks I sound like a crazy person when I say that. just because we're 1200 miles away doesn't mean we can't hang out. We watch tv together and webcam :) its cute. Been watching the office every night together lately. So funny. Things are going so well, I love it. We talk all day everyday. I can't wait to go back ! He said after he gets a raise I'll most likely be able to move back. I hope so. I hate it here, need my bunny. I really wanna go soon so I can just transfer schools, my school sucks. I cannot even waitttt ! lovelovelove :) makes me the happiest girl on the planet. Jim's being a little pain in the butt today. Very grumpy, so I went to 7-11 and got him a can of tuna to cheer him up. Now he's sleeping like a little baby :) So happy to have him with me. Waiting for this video to save so I can send it on its way. Its seriously taken an hour and a half and its still only at 69% done. Damn. Downloaded new mixtapes, excited for that. Need to get in the shower pretty quick here. Keep forgeting my towels :/ Everyday it gets colder and colder. I hope I can get out of here before it gets too bad. My bones can't handle the cold. Need to get back on my diet. I've gained like 10 pounds since I've been back. Gross. Bad jo. my roots are already starting to show even tho I bleached my hair last thursday. Got some pretty nasty bleach burns :( owie. I've had constant body aches lately. Mostly my neck/head and legs. Idk why. It sucks. Feels like I got beat up :/ I think I'm depressed. I don't want to be. I'm gonna be so tired today, probably go to school then come home and take a nap then do allysons hair. New call of duty came out yesterday. Maybe for the surprise? I need to get some cash together asap. I just want to take out a fucking loan but I know I won't be able to pay it back and I don't wanna fuck up my credit. Gonna have to start stripping or something hahah what else, hmmm... Idk, I guess there is nothing else. At least that I can think of. So I'm outt !

and everytime i ask her, she just say yes, she just say yes... [November 2nd, 2009 at 1:38pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | lil wayne ] downloading mixtapes then getting in the shower and then hanging out with allyson :] yay halloween was ridiculousss! haha um not good haha. me and bethann both got hurt, lets leave it at that hahaha omg i was lady gaga, then lindsay lohan then barbie. bleached my hair thursday, doing it again this week. gonna be white blonde ! yay. its gonna be sick as fuck, babes gonna looove it. i have the day off today. school and work tomorrow. and every other day for the rest of the week. i need to make more money. think ima apply at places in bay city. its bad, the ci is killin me. i love delivering, its like my favorite thing ever but its not paying the bills... only one mixtape left to finish downloading! i just got over being sick and now im sick again cause i shared drinks with ba and cara. dammit. idiot. MEDICINE! yay already planning; going to be so amazing ! :] srslysuchaswt♥ i need to get this shit on my ipod and get in the shower, im out !

and i might like you for a minute but i dont like your friends in my business... [October 28th, 2009 at 10:15pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | lil wayne ] In bed School tomorrow Like everyday Then work(actually no work) Like everyday. Looking into a different option. Not down for this bullshit. Its been real. Chillin with jimmy :) new mixtapes+ Halloween is saturday. I have to work and I think I'm gonna bleach my hair on my day off. Thursday? Wait shit that's tomorrow. I need to bleach it tomorrow. Just called ba and made the plan hah think ima be lady gaga. Eek. But ima wear pants ha. Leggings at least. Need to look at pics to get more ideas. Mm can't wait. Need to look up shit on mrh too. Shit. I got shit to do. I'm out. !

she was more like a ring on your left hand, tuxedo, best man, flower girl, 'posed to be ours girl.. [October 24th, 2009 at 3:27pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | wayne ] K so I thought I had to be to work at 5 but actually I'm supposed to be there at 4. I'm not there. Its like 410. I called. But here's why besides me being wrong about time. The fucking car is dead. And I have no cables. And so bethann is on her way to jump me. From midland. Great. There goes money. Bad day. I was going to update a good entry before I remembered I had to work. And now I have time so.. awesome. Not really. Anyways. Been going to school, working. Ima be so sweet at braids. Mm yes. Brought home a new (old)friend the other day. Jim! Yay. So happy to have my kitty back! Miss your voice. Felt so good to hear it. Can't wait til I get to go to illinois. Yay. Best vacation everrr :) Now I'm just waiting for ba to get here to jump me. Hopefully that fixes it. If not then its a ride back to midland. To drive my lovee :) Idk. Karma or something. Hittin me back hard at the moment ha I hope she hurriesss. lol whatever, I'm over it out !

ill spend my winters and my springs on it, and put a ring on it... [October 16th, 2009 at 1:28pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | wayne ] k time for a quickkkkkk update school, work, you know chillin, went to the club last night made me realize that i want nothing to do with any of these boys and on that note. IM BOUT TO KILL A BITCH! seriously, get off it. SERIOUSLYYYYYYYYYYY. going to see rabbit soon, soooo fuckinggg excitedddd mm yayyy yay yay!!!!!!!!!!! and ill get to see deejayyyy ! so pumped. goood loveeee bout to take a shower and get ready for work. not going out tonight, or any other school night anymore. making shit too hard. might transferr. hope so. changed girl. thats meee. things are in perspective again. lost it for a second there. "i could never date a girl who wasnt as pretty as you, there arent many." <3 showertimeeee out !

im no quitter, cause ima go ima go ima go getter... [October 7th, 2009 at 1:30pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | wayne obv ] ummmm guess i should updateee school is stupid but whatever work is okay but i still need more money i need: car insurance tires $$ to go see rabbit oh dear and i dont know what to be for halloween, everyone says lady gaga. idk. maybe barbie. idk what to dooo. ideassss plz? just got new wayneee :] yayyy i cant wait for jjs training. im glad its not that close cause i gotta save money so i can go but i cant freakin wait! little roadtrip, see my bunny, mmm <3 hung out with allyson monday, yay havent been drinking lately. got wayy too drunk last week. breaktime lol i also need new shoesssss idk i dont have anything else to say right now

ill pull down the stars and bring one back for you... [September 19th, 2009 at 1:43am] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | kanye west ! ] I'm drunkkkkkkk Party at my new house tonight.fun but it has to stop. School at 9am. My typing is echoing throughtout the room. I just need to say a few things... School is hard but good. Got 100% on my test today. Maybe the only 100 in my class ! Go me. Uhhhh nana nana! Ha And work is exactly how I left it. And Ilovedmw 4everandeverandever and ever !. Times 865239425. I don't give a shit what anyone says. Fuck all the lies and rumors and bullshit and fights. Love is love and I love him. Give up the sun and stars and sky. L-O-V-E! Excellent chat tonight.love4eva. I want another tattoo. I need to make money. Now. I got debts yo. I need to go to bed. For real. Nightlovessss ! Cause there's something you dooo-oo-oo, that got me walkin on the moon !

since you been gone i been all alone but alone is steroids cause it made me strong... [September 8th, 2009 at 11:11pm] [ mood | high ] [ music | wayne in my head ] Dear midland, Yeah that was really me. Love, jo. Moving on... Went to bay city last night, twice today. Registered for classes. Gotta go to sallys ! yay discount carddd Went and picked up heidi and we drove around and pawned some shit hahahahah went to the ci and saw kenny ! yay. Then drove to bay city again to go to the ci there to see nick and then to show her my house. She met wag. He's nice :) I think we'll prob get along well. Actually met raje in person last night too. He's little :) haha in a good way. They're gonna be fun roommates. And obv my bethyyyy! Yayy. She's the besttt. Prob one of the only friends ill really have forever. We've made it this long :) good cause I love herrr. Gonna paint my room. Not sure what color yet. I want something really sweet. Its gonna be the first room that is 100% me, all my choice. And I want it to be bad ass :) Now I'm at niccis, chillin. I guess. Idk. Hostility er something. Idk what I gotta do tomorrow. Recoverr Haaa. Start back at the ci thurdsday. Yay thur, fri, sat 5-9. Partying friday with my heidibaby. Boo says she's gonna hang out buttt we only got to see each other once so far :( busy with her new (tyy)boo, bitch hahaha <3 I miss having a boy. Seems like everyone has one now. Miss having someone there. But Im definitley not ready for a new one. not even for a minute. Everyones like 'the rebounds the best part of breaking up' fuck that. I'd just feel like a skank and regret it afterwords. it aint in me... I've always been a person who's never had regrets. I lived by that. No regrets, what's happened has brought to where you are today. But now I have one, I don't need anymore. In reality I'd say my whole life is one giant regret. Whatever. Pity party for one ! Hahahhaah over it. Found out I'm getting some serious bank back from school. I'm starting to be in debt. Not on paper tho. bills: Rent Insurance Car repair Car payment Good thing I start work again thursday. Can't wait to get my check and money back from school. :) call about my car sunday. start school monday. Damn. Gettin it done tho. Can't wait to live in bay cityy. Ahh. That's all for now I guess. o-u-t !

i just wanna be, i just wanna be sucessful... [August 27th, 2009 at 10:49pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | soulja boy ] Kind of exactly what I expected it would be right now. My mom got here today. Were driving saturday. Packing tomorrow. Watching dolphins vs bucks with rabbit. (had to reword that after I typed it :/) Actually I'm smoking a cigarette right now. I start school on september 15th. Ill be back tampa. Its only a year. Every year goes by faster and faster anyways. It'll be gone and over in the blink of an eye. Kinda feels like I've had to rewind my life to go forward. Fucked up. Shoulda just done what I was supposed to to start with. Damn. Ill get it right. swearrr. I'm out !

nothing else mattered... [August 18th, 2009 at 4:58pm] My heart is broken into a million pieces and I have no one to blame but myself. But I will fix this. I swear on my life. My mom is trying to figure out my financial aid now. I'm going to start school as soon as possible. It'll take a year. And it will be the hardest year of my life, no doubt. But I'm going to do it. I have to do it. Everything I've wanted in my whole life is depending on it. I won't let you down again. Pinky swear. <3 !

im worth all the crap that im putting you through... [August 16th, 2009 at 9:28pm] [ mood | cranky ] As if the entire world didn't see this coming... Me and rabbit are over. I'm stuck in tampa for 11 more days. I just want to go home. Things are confusing and painful and just plain awful at the moment. But you know what they say... The show must go on There are other fish in the sea Better to have loved and lost Blah blah blah blah blah Who fucking cares anymore? I don't even want to think about a boy ever again. I wanna think about me, bumping lil wayne, buying whatever new clothes I want, going to the tanner, getting fucked up every night, going to cos school and making a million dollars. Fuck anyone who wants to hate on that cause that's what I want to do. Like it or love it or leave it ! I don't care anymore, there's no point. Ill update when I get back. out !

stop waving back, im drowning... [August 11th, 2009 at 2:27pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | the matches :] ] im okay. today. i have to work 5-10. switched shifts. i need a drink. (im thirsty. not "i need a drank") damn. not saying id turn it down tho ahaha i dont know how to put into words what im feeling right now. so for now its nothing. and suddenly i feel like an idiot. so dumb. i just want to start now. 6-10 days is a long time. ( this ) i was going to do this on my bb but i just needed to get it out faster. i want more tattoosss. i need to save. my tire got fucked up sooo i had to go get a new one, but i took care of it :] with a little help from amazing friends at work :] and he said "out of all of you, you always seem to have the amazing ability to somehow be the most likely to land on your feet." too much already.. outt! !

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